I haven’t blogged in a very long time. I think that it’s
been about 6 months. It’s been a crazy busy time of finishing my degree (Still
going) and of discovering more of who The King of Glory is.
Jesus.
His name is so sweet to my lips. I am realising more and
more, every day, the depth of the love that He has for me. This love is real, radical,
addictive, its life changing, it’s overwhelming. Sweetly overwhelming. It’s available for all and we don’t have to
strive for it. Tasting of even a tiny bit of who Jesus is leaves you wanting
more. Nothing else will satisfy and everything will seem vanilla in comparison.
Every time I spend time with Him at the moment I am crying. But instead of it
being tears of sadness and hurt, like it has been for a large amount of my
life, these tears are tears of coming into more of an understanding of His
radical, sweeping love. The kind of love that overcomes fear. The kind of love that causes me to fall to my
knees and repent. The kind of love that allows me to love people who I have
never been able to trust and who have hurt me. The kind of love that fills
every deepest need, longing, and every empty place. And day by day, week by
week I am seeing healing in my life and in my relationships and I am seeing
complete redemption and restoration in every single area of my life, some of
which I thought I had moved on from. But He has dug it up and dealt with it
with me. Almost like saying “Charlie, I am here to restore everything , not a
little bit here and a little bit there”.
When we walk as daughters and sons, we walk in FULLNESS. Not
in half measures. Keep giving up more and more each day, keep throwing off the
old and PICKING UP the new. We died with Christ in order to be raised to NEW
life. So often I think we forget to pick up the new. We start by laying down
our lives and saying Jesus have it, but then we don’t push in and take what is
ours, what God has for us, what He yearns to give us. And that is fullness of
life with Him.
Beloved He calls us. He calls you
and He calls me.
Beloved stop settling for less than what is ours through
Christ’s death and resurrection. Call out to Him, cry out for more, for a
deeper understanding and He will answer, He will respond and He will make Himself
known to you.
Something that is massively on my heart at the moment is
about seeking deeper and deeper what it means to be the bride of Christ, what
it means to have God as my husband. I never realised these truths until a while
ago when I read Isaiah 54 which says
“…For your Maker is your husband, the Lord Almighty is His
name, the Holy one of Israel is your Redeemer; he is called the God of all the
earth. The Lord will call you back as if you were a wife deserted and
distressed in spirit…”
When I started reading about the depth of relationship that
is readily available for us in Him, in Jesus, I realised that the level of
intimacy I had with Him, well it wasn’t enough, I wanted more. And so this is
my journey. It is still one of joy, of continuously seeking His heavenly joy
that completes me like nothing has ever completed me before. Of seeking His
intimacy that nothing, absolutely nothing can compare to. Having the continued
understanding that no sin, no deepest and most darkest shame can separate me
from the absolute life changing, deep love of Christ. He knows me, He knows the
deepest parts of me, yet HE still persues me, He calls me, He still seeks after
me, He has found me. I have been found. That’s an incredible thought. Wow. No
words can describe that. I pray that the revelation of that sinks deeper and
deeper into me every day.
“If your eye is on the sparrow, then your heart is on me.”
(Jake Hamilton – Embrace)
There is so much to write about at the moment. Something
that is stirring within me at the moment and I can’t explain it, I don’t fully
understand it, but I am so completely
and utterly hungry for it. It is about not being earthbound. I am so hungry
for my eyes and ears and dreams to be opened to the spiritual realm, which is
more realistic that the one we live in. To not live earthbound.
Ephesians 2:6 says the following:
“And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with Him in
the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus.”
This is the foundation from which I believe that it is open
and available to us. We just have to ask and to want it to be opened to us. I
am not sure about so much but I am hungry, so hungry to live knowing,
understanding, living and breathing in Him, in the completeness that He brings.
At the moment I am reading a book called “Come Away My
Beloved”. It isn’t a normal book but it is basically got absolute biblical
truths in it and as I read it I am swept away a little bit into this closet of
intimate relationship that He calls all of us into. This book read along with
the word, is causing me to hunger for more than I have right now. And I pray
that this grows day by day. The book is by Frances J. Roberts.
COME AWAY MY BELOVED
“Come out from among them and be separate,
says the Lord”. (2 Corinthians 6:17)
My beloved, you do not need to make
your path, for I go before you. Yes, I will engineer circumstances on your
behalf. I am your husband; I will protect you, care for you, and make full
provision for you.
I know your need, and I am concerned
for you; for your peace, for your health, for your strength. I cannot use a
tired body, and you need to take time to renew your energies, both spiritual
and physical. I am the God of battle, but I am also the One who said
“Those who wait on the Lord shall
renew their strength” (Isaiah 40:31).
I will teach you, as I taught Moses
on the back side of the desert, and as I taught Paul in Arabia. In the same
way, I will teach you, and it will be a constructive period, not in any sense
wasted time. Like the summer course to the schoolteacher, it is vital to you in
order to become fully qualified for your ministry.
There is no virtue in activity In
and of itself –nor in inactivity. I minister to you in solitude that you may
minister Me to others as a spontaneous overflow of our communion. Never labour
to serve, nor force opportunities. Set your heart to be at peace and to sit at
My feet. Learn to be ready but not to be anxious. Learn to say “no” to human
demands and to say “yes” to the call of the Spirit. These may sometimes be at
variance. Do not be distressed by the misunderstanding of people. Let me take
care of them Myself. They too must learn this same important lesson, and you
can help them by setting the example; but if you try to please them by
answering every demand, you will both fall into the same snare.
I am a jealous God, and I am always
at peace with Myself. I would have you also to be at peace with My Spirit
within you. As you give Me My rightful place and do not allow others to
intrude, you will be at peace with Me. Be very serious in this. I am not
speaking to you lightly. I was never more earnest in any message I have brought
you. Do not fail Me. I have brought you this message at various times in the
past. It was never more urgent than now.
For people are experiencing a new
awakening, and they are searching for My Truth more than ever. I must speak
through My prophets; and if they are not set apart for Me, how can I instruct
them? Yes, I will nourish you by the brook as I nourished Elijah; and I will
speak to you out of the bush as I spoke to Moses and reveal My glory on the
hillside as I did to the shepherds.
Come away, My beloved; be like the
doe on the mountains; and we will go down together to the gardens”.
