Crazy Love

I wrote this a few months ago before I headed out to Canada, but I would like to include this now!!

He loves me, He loves me, He loves me. He loves me, He loves me, He loves me. Through the hard times, through the painful times, in the joyous times. In the desert place and in the place of abundance. In the place Even of sin. He loves me.Wow. I have just had a realisation again of the true, life giving, all encompassing love of God. Love of Jesus. Love of the Holy Spirit. Today I did some stuff that I felt God had specifically told me not to do. It wasn't dodgy or a blatant sin but I had really felt convicted to not do or say that particular thing. An i did. Its not wrong for all but for me it just wasnt the best.Not because God was being mean or wanted to limit me but because He wants me to have life and life to the full. I could spend time comparing myself to others standards but God calls each of us to His standards and He challenges us all to different things!! He doesnt call us away from things to take from us. He calls us away am challenges us an convicts us of things cos He has better more life giving things that He yearns to bless us with. He doesn't call His sons an daughters to lead mediocre lives. His heart is for us to experience and know the goodness and the incredible all consuming love of the Father. To never walk alone and to always know that we are sought after, we are pursued, we are wanted, we belong. He doesn't want us to walk in constant guilt like its a massive chain around our neck or shackles on our feet. He wants us to recognise our sin, repent of it and allow Him, Jesus to release us from that. Forgive us, restore us to completeness. He calls us to FREEDOM!!  When we muck up (as we all do) He convicts us, yes, but He doesn't push us away. He calls us to walk closer, to seek Him, to find Him. He calls us to intimacy with Him. The only One who can ever truly fill that gap, that hole within us that we all feel at times. He calls us closer to heal us, to restore us, to complete us, to fulfill the longings that we all have within us. The story of the cross, the story of Christ, of The creator God is a love story. A love story that involves us. Love of the purest kind. Crazy love. The way it was meant to be.

Come Away My Beloved

I haven’t blogged in a very long time. I think that it’s been about 6 months. It’s been a crazy busy time of finishing my degree (Still going) and of discovering more of who The King of Glory is.

Jesus.

His name is so sweet to my lips. I am realising more and more, every day, the depth of the love that He has for me. This love is real, radical, addictive, its life changing, it’s overwhelming. Sweetly overwhelming.  It’s available for all and we don’t have to strive for it. Tasting of even a tiny bit of who Jesus is leaves you wanting more. Nothing else will satisfy and everything will seem vanilla in comparison. Every time I spend time with Him at the moment I am crying. But instead of it being tears of sadness and hurt, like it has been for a large amount of my life, these tears are tears of coming into more of an understanding of His radical, sweeping love. The kind of love that overcomes fear.  The kind of love that causes me to fall to my knees and repent. The kind of love that allows me to love people who I have never been able to trust and who have hurt me. The kind of love that fills every deepest need, longing, and every empty place. And day by day, week by week I am seeing healing in my life and in my relationships and I am seeing complete redemption and restoration in every single area of my life, some of which I thought I had moved on from. But He has dug it up and dealt with it with me. Almost like saying “Charlie, I am here to restore everything , not a little bit here and a little bit there”.

 When we walk as daughters and sons, we walk in FULLNESS. Not in half measures. Keep giving up more and more each day, keep throwing off the old and PICKING UP the new. We died with Christ in order to be raised to NEW life. So often I think we forget to pick up the new. We start by laying down our lives and saying Jesus have it, but then we don’t push in and take what is ours, what God has for us, what He yearns to give us. And that is fullness of life with Him.

Beloved He calls us. He calls you and He calls me.

Beloved stop settling for less than what is ours through Christ’s death and resurrection. Call out to Him, cry out for more, for a deeper understanding and He will answer, He will respond and He will make Himself known to you.

Something that is massively on my heart at the moment is about seeking deeper and deeper what it means to be the bride of Christ, what it means to have God as my husband. I never realised these truths until a while ago when I read Isaiah 54 which says

“…For your Maker is your husband, the Lord Almighty is His name, the Holy one of Israel is your Redeemer; he is called the God of all the earth. The Lord will call you back as if you were a wife deserted and distressed in spirit…”

When I started reading about the depth of relationship that is readily available for us in Him, in Jesus, I realised that the level of intimacy I had with Him, well it wasn’t enough, I wanted more. And so this is my journey. It is still one of joy, of continuously seeking His heavenly joy that completes me like nothing has ever completed me before. Of seeking His intimacy that nothing, absolutely nothing can compare to. Having the continued understanding that no sin, no deepest and most darkest shame can separate me from the absolute life changing, deep love of Christ. He knows me, He knows the deepest parts of me, yet HE still persues me, He calls me, He still seeks after me, He has found me. I have been found. That’s an incredible thought. Wow. No words can describe that. I pray that the revelation of that sinks deeper and deeper into me every day.

“If your eye is on the sparrow, then your heart is on me.” (Jake Hamilton – Embrace)

There is so much to write about at the moment. Something that is stirring within me at the moment and I can’t explain it, I don’t fully understand it, but I am so completely  and utterly hungry for it. It is about not being earthbound. I am so hungry for my eyes and ears and dreams to be opened to the spiritual realm, which is more realistic that the one we live in. To not live earthbound.

Ephesians 2:6 says the following:

“And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with Him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus.”

This is the foundation from which I believe that it is open and available to us. We just have to ask and to want it to be opened to us. I am not sure about so much but I am hungry, so hungry to live knowing, understanding, living and breathing in Him, in the completeness that He brings.

At the moment I am reading a book called “Come Away My Beloved”. It isn’t a normal book but it is basically got absolute biblical truths in it and as I read it I am swept away a little bit into this closet of intimate relationship that He calls all of us into. This book read along with the word, is causing me to hunger for more than I have right now. And I pray that this grows day by day. The book is by Frances J. Roberts.

COME AWAY MY BELOVED

“Come out from among them and be separate, says the Lord”. (2 Corinthians 6:17)

My beloved, you do not need to make your path, for I go before you. Yes, I will engineer circumstances on your behalf. I am your husband; I will protect you, care for you, and make full provision for you.

I know your need, and I am concerned for you; for your peace, for your health, for your strength. I cannot use a tired body, and you need to take time to renew your energies, both spiritual and physical. I am the God of battle, but I am also the One who said

“Those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength” (Isaiah 40:31).

I will teach you, as I taught Moses on the back side of the desert, and as I taught Paul in Arabia. In the same way, I will teach you, and it will be a constructive period, not in any sense wasted time. Like the summer course to the schoolteacher, it is vital to you in order to become fully qualified for your ministry.

There is no virtue in activity In and of itself –nor in inactivity. I minister to you in solitude that you may minister Me to others as a spontaneous overflow of our communion. Never labour to serve, nor force opportunities. Set your heart to be at peace and to sit at My feet. Learn to be ready but not to be anxious. Learn to say “no” to human demands and to say “yes” to the call of the Spirit. These may sometimes be at variance. Do not be distressed by the misunderstanding of people. Let me take care of them Myself. They too must learn this same important lesson, and you can help them by setting the example; but if you try to please them by answering every demand, you will both fall into the same snare.

I am a jealous God, and I am always at peace with Myself. I would have you also to be at peace with My Spirit within you. As you give Me My rightful place and do not allow others to intrude, you will be at peace with Me. Be very serious in this. I am not speaking to you lightly. I was never more earnest in any message I have brought you. Do not fail Me. I have brought you this message at various times in the past. It was never more urgent than now.

For people are experiencing a new awakening, and they are searching for My Truth more than ever. I must speak through My prophets; and if they are not set apart for Me, how can I instruct them? Yes, I will nourish you by the brook as I nourished Elijah; and I will speak to you out of the bush as I spoke to Moses and reveal My glory on the hillside as I did to the shepherds.

Come away, My beloved; be like the doe on the mountains; and we will go down together to the gardens”.